Death, it comes uninvited. Silent, unexpected. Fill your remaining hours with benefits because it might be your last.
-Yasmin hunwick in memories :')
Al-Fatihah. . .
-Yasmin hunwick in memories :')
Al-Fatihah. . .
I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
Doesn't seem right these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try somehow the planned
Is always rearrange
It's so hard to say
But I gotta do what's best for me
You'll be okay
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here I hope you understand
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now I gotta go my own way
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
And I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
And it's just so hard to watch it all
Slowly fade away
I'm leaving today
Cause I gotta do what's best for me
You'll be okay
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here I hope you understand
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now I gotta go my own way
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?
What about trust?
You know I never wanted to crush you
And what about me?
What am I supposed to do
I gotta leave but I'll miss you
-Gotta go my own way, Vanessa Hudgens
" If it's really meant to be, no distance and space can do us apart. But if you're not meant for me, I can't call you mine even if you're here "
Something about us
Doesn't seem right these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try somehow the planned
Is always rearrange
It's so hard to say
But I gotta do what's best for me
You'll be okay
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here I hope you understand
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now I gotta go my own way
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
And I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
And it's just so hard to watch it all
Slowly fade away
I'm leaving today
Cause I gotta do what's best for me
You'll be okay
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here I hope you understand
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now I gotta go my own way
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?
What about trust?
You know I never wanted to crush you
And what about me?
What am I supposed to do
I gotta leave but I'll miss you
-Gotta go my own way, Vanessa Hudgens
" If it's really meant to be, no distance and space can do us apart. But if you're not meant for me, I can't call you mine even if you're here "
Early this year my weight tremendously increases from 40 to 43. Well biasa laa duduk rumah makan tidur je memang la berat naik. Some of my friends noticed I gained a couple kg. It's kinda weird I gain weight so fast. It's just a few months and I gained 3kg -.- I've never gain this much weight before. Usually I'm the type of girl that eats like there's no tomorrow and never actually gain weight. haha be jealous girls !
But then again, yesterday I randomly step up on the scale and then bomm ! 39 ! whaaaaaat ?! Last time I checked I was 43. I think the scale is wrong, so wrong. Naik turun scale dua tiga kali still 39. I was shocked. Like super shocked ! Erghhh what is wrong with me. I admit these few days I've got a lot of things on my mind, but I never forgot EAT ! My mom is kinda worried that I ate too much but why am I losing weight why why :'(
But then again, yesterday I randomly step up on the scale and then bomm ! 39 ! whaaaaaat ?! Last time I checked I was 43. I think the scale is wrong, so wrong. Naik turun scale dua tiga kali still 39. I was shocked. Like super shocked ! Erghhh what is wrong with me. I admit these few days I've got a lot of things on my mind, but I never forgot EAT ! My mom is kinda worried that I ate too much but why am I losing weight why why :'(
" I'm torn apart inside but physically you'll see me laughing, trying to find those missing pieces"
Cherophobia. It means fear of happiness from Greek. People with Cherophobia are afraid to be happy because they believe something tragic is going to happen soon. They're not always sad but they keep the happiness inside. They build a wall around themselves.
Just imagine the fear of being happy. How can someone live with that? I first discovered this type of phobia through a novel I read. Someone that suffers this kind of phobia is more likely to be shy and loner. They're afraid of having fun, and expressing their happiness.
I feel sorry for them. It is such a waste not to be able to express our happiness. This phobia usually develop due to traumatic experiences at an early age and past accident in their lives. It is surely a complex disease because it involves the brain. We might not know what cause it and how to cure it. Some can be cured but not completely. A traumatic event might trigger it back making it harder to be cured,
Medicine can be prescribed, but the medication can cause side effects and it might not be good for health. A good way, to cure Cherophobics is through counselling, psychotherapy,and Neuro-Linguistic programming. The process might be slow and usually it depends on the patient itself to want to overcome their fears. Doctors can't help if they don't want to get over the wall they've build for so long.
p/s : This is a little information I'd like to share because I think I know some people don't even realise they have this kind of phobia.
Just imagine the fear of being happy. How can someone live with that? I first discovered this type of phobia through a novel I read. Someone that suffers this kind of phobia is more likely to be shy and loner. They're afraid of having fun, and expressing their happiness.
I feel sorry for them. It is such a waste not to be able to express our happiness. This phobia usually develop due to traumatic experiences at an early age and past accident in their lives. It is surely a complex disease because it involves the brain. We might not know what cause it and how to cure it. Some can be cured but not completely. A traumatic event might trigger it back making it harder to be cured,
Medicine can be prescribed, but the medication can cause side effects and it might not be good for health. A good way, to cure Cherophobics is through counselling, psychotherapy,and Neuro-Linguistic programming. The process might be slow and usually it depends on the patient itself to want to overcome their fears. Doctors can't help if they don't want to get over the wall they've build for so long.
p/s : This is a little information I'd like to share because I think I know some people don't even realise they have this kind of phobia.
"Never make permanent decisions based on temporary emotion"
When two souls fall in love, there's nothing else but the yearning to be close to the other. The presence that is felt through a hand held, a voice heard, or a smile seen.
Souls do not have calendars or clocks, nor do they understand the notion of time or distance. They only know it feels right to be with one another.
This is the reason why you miss someone so much when they're not there. Even if they're only in the very next room. Your souls only feel their absence. I doesn't realise the separation is temporary.
Can I ask you something?
Anything.
Why is it everytime we say goodnight, it feels like goodbye ?
via Neurolove,
Specially dedicated to Ninety-V :)
p/s : Maybe we're not lovers but I know my soul is with you guys. Always.
Souls do not have calendars or clocks, nor do they understand the notion of time or distance. They only know it feels right to be with one another.
This is the reason why you miss someone so much when they're not there. Even if they're only in the very next room. Your souls only feel their absence. I doesn't realise the separation is temporary.
Can I ask you something?
Anything.
Why is it everytime we say goodnight, it feels like goodbye ?
via Neurolove,
Specially dedicated to Ninety-V :)
p/s : Maybe we're not lovers but I know my soul is with you guys. Always.
once a Ninety-V always a Ninety-V
You are who you are, ignore what people expect. You have your own rights to determine your life.
Keep calm and never give up. Life is not always fair.
Accepting the truth is best when you want to live in reality.
If you're happy with who you are, just close your eyes and make the right choice.
Happiness is a decision, not a choice.
Don't let your insecurities ruin you.
Be true to yourself, in whatever situation. Or you might regret it.
All you need is faith and you'll be alright. Promise.
Tender love and care comes with a price. Honesty.
Stop being what people expect you to be. Just try your best to stay YOU.
Keep calm and never give up. Life is not always fair.
Accepting the truth is best when you want to live in reality.
If you're happy with who you are, just close your eyes and make the right choice.
Happiness is a decision, not a choice.
Don't let your insecurities ruin you.
Be true to yourself, in whatever situation. Or you might regret it.
All you need is faith and you'll be alright. Promise.
Tender love and care comes with a price. Honesty.
Stop being what people expect you to be. Just try your best to stay YOU.
Please be noted that the following was written sincerely by me to my heart. It doesn't involve you, him, her, them, us or anyone else. It's just me.
Dear Heart,
This is a confession that I've put so much effort to make. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. All these days I've done so much thing that cause you pain and insecurities. I led you astray. I forgot our actual responsibilities in this world. Why we were created in the first place? yes, to worship Him. The one and only Allah S.W.T. But look what I've done to you? I make you love other people, other things instead if Him, The Most Merciful.
Astaghfirullahalazim. I felt so guilty. I've sinned. Oh Lord forgive me for I have neglected you all this while. Oh dear heart, please forgive me too for I am the reason of all this. I let my mind being controlled by others. Changing is not easy. It hurts to leave whatever I've been doing all this while but I know I have to. It's the right thing to do.
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong - KC
Forgive ohh dear heart. I promise to take better care of you. And I promise that the only person that'll ever have you is my husband. InsyaAllah :)
I'm sorry.
Forgive me for hurting you.
Whether to be happy or to be sad, the choice is yours. Don't give away that decision to someone else.
"But ask forgiveness to your Lord and turn to Him (in repentance) : For my Lord is indeed full of mercy and loving-kindness" (11:90)
Dear Heart,
This is a confession that I've put so much effort to make. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. All these days I've done so much thing that cause you pain and insecurities. I led you astray. I forgot our actual responsibilities in this world. Why we were created in the first place? yes, to worship Him. The one and only Allah S.W.T. But look what I've done to you? I make you love other people, other things instead if Him, The Most Merciful.
Astaghfirullahalazim. I felt so guilty. I've sinned. Oh Lord forgive me for I have neglected you all this while. Oh dear heart, please forgive me too for I am the reason of all this. I let my mind being controlled by others. Changing is not easy. It hurts to leave whatever I've been doing all this while but I know I have to. It's the right thing to do.
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong - KC
Forgive ohh dear heart. I promise to take better care of you. And I promise that the only person that'll ever have you is my husband. InsyaAllah :)
I'm sorry.
Forgive me for hurting you.
Whether to be happy or to be sad, the choice is yours. Don't give away that decision to someone else.
"But ask forgiveness to your Lord and turn to Him (in repentance) : For my Lord is indeed full of mercy and loving-kindness" (11:90)
Assalamualaikum everyone !
Okay in this entry I'm gonna talk about RELATIONSHIPS. Yes. Sounds interesting right. I hope those youngsters out there read this. Okay actually I often read motivational books on relationships and marriages. It gives me a better perspective of what to expect in the future. And last year I read 'Aku Terima Nikahnya' and it's a very good book for people that looks forward in relationships.
From that book, I discover a psychological fact that I think every girl and boy thinking of involving in a relationship should know. The book says psychological studies have proven that a man and a woman will lose interest in each other averagely in 4 years time. They'll start getting boring and they give less attention to their partner. It's because they're getting to feel weary and tired of the same thing over and over again. At this point, the partner will start to give excuses and the relationship slowly dies. Just like that. So if you don't have any plans to tie the knot in the near future don't even think about getting in a relationship ! I'm not saying those who have known each other for quite some time should break up or what but it's proven babe. Maybe it won't apply for everybody but most of them YES.
This is why Islam encourage us to quickly tie the knot if you've found somebody that you think is good enough to guide you to Jannah, able to provide you with whatever needed in a marriage. Why procrastinate something good right ?
When we get into marriage, the bond of the marriage itself will hold these partners together. Well usually during early period of the marriage the couples will go through lots and lots of happy time. Honeymoon phase lah kata kannn hahaha. Then when it comes to the second or third year of marriage everything will began to fall apart. This is usually theroughest and toughest times in all marriages. Everything have their ups and downs, well so does marriages. During this phase, the couples starting to get to know their partner's dark side. Their true colour. But for the sake of the bond that they have tied, they'll fight hard to keep their relationship strong. It gets harder if there's a baby involve. The husband will feel ignored, jealous, and envy of the attention his wife gives the baby than the attention given to him. You might laugh reading this because you've not yet experience it. Well neither do I but based on what I've been reading it's kinda true. A partner will always craves attention no matter in what situation. You're lucky if you have an understanding one !
Then after 5 to 6 years the marriage will become stable and firm. Both the husband and wife have finally adapt to the marriage life they choose. This is the time they can regain their love and put those sparks of love back on flame ! haha I feel awkward writing all these but I thought it's something that I wanna share with you guys. I'm sorry for any misunderstanding regarding this post. It's just a little information from me. This is what I got from reading and I'd be happy if you guys try to start reading any inspirational and useful books. It doesn't have to involve marriage of course, anything is fine. When you read a lot you'll realise there's still a lot more to learn. You can start with blogs !
Thank you for reading ! Really appreciate it :D
Okay in this entry I'm gonna talk about RELATIONSHIPS. Yes. Sounds interesting right. I hope those youngsters out there read this. Okay actually I often read motivational books on relationships and marriages. It gives me a better perspective of what to expect in the future. And last year I read 'Aku Terima Nikahnya' and it's a very good book for people that looks forward in relationships.
From that book, I discover a psychological fact that I think every girl and boy thinking of involving in a relationship should know. The book says psychological studies have proven that a man and a woman will lose interest in each other averagely in 4 years time. They'll start getting boring and they give less attention to their partner. It's because they're getting to feel weary and tired of the same thing over and over again. At this point, the partner will start to give excuses and the relationship slowly dies. Just like that. So if you don't have any plans to tie the knot in the near future don't even think about getting in a relationship ! I'm not saying those who have known each other for quite some time should break up or what but it's proven babe. Maybe it won't apply for everybody but most of them YES.
This is why Islam encourage us to quickly tie the knot if you've found somebody that you think is good enough to guide you to Jannah, able to provide you with whatever needed in a marriage. Why procrastinate something good right ?
When we get into marriage, the bond of the marriage itself will hold these partners together. Well usually during early period of the marriage the couples will go through lots and lots of happy time. Honeymoon phase lah kata kannn hahaha. Then when it comes to the second or third year of marriage everything will began to fall apart. This is usually the
Then after 5 to 6 years the marriage will become stable and firm. Both the husband and wife have finally adapt to the marriage life they choose. This is the time they can regain their love and put those sparks of love back on flame ! haha I feel awkward writing all these but I thought it's something that I wanna share with you guys. I'm sorry for any misunderstanding regarding this post. It's just a little information from me. This is what I got from reading and I'd be happy if you guys try to start reading any inspirational and useful books. It doesn't have to involve marriage of course, anything is fine. When you read a lot you'll realise there's still a lot more to learn. You can start with blogs !
Thank you for reading ! Really appreciate it :D
If only I was grateful
If only I was smarter
If only I'd make the right decisions
If only I was patient enough
If only I learnt more yesterday
If only I cared
If only I realise it before
If only I knew
These are the signs of regret and giving up. Never look back wishing you could've change anything. What happened in the past are meant to teach us something. To show us the value of those we often neglect. Make it as a drive force to push us forward to the future.
I decide to write this entry because lately I've regretted most of the the things in my life. To be honest, I'm really scared of the upcoming SPM results. I know I could've done it much much better. If only I could turn back time. But all those thinking made me realise that whatever happens to me next is more important than crying over spilled milk. I need to lift up my chin and work had in the future. No one can change my fate but me. InsyaAllah. The best is yet to come :)
The beauty of nature is always the best
*This picture was taken long long ago*
Subhanallah !
Such beautiful sight.
I'm grateful to be given the ability to see with my eyes to praise Your spectacular creations.
Alhamdulillah.
Today he lost his job.
Today he lost his house.
Today he lost his friends
Today he lost the ones he love
Today he lost his family
Today he lost everything he thought he needed to live for
But. . . .
He will always have Allah.
And with that he never complaint.
While we have it all, they have nothing. Did they complain ? No. They're thankful to be still given the chance to breathe under His blessings. And for someone who have it all why are we still whining? sighing? Astaghfirullahalazim. Forgive us o'Allah for we have been ungrateful of the grace you've provide.
AL-Kahfi (The Cave)
If anyone learns by hearts the first 10 verse of Surah Al-Kahf, he will be protected from the Dajjal (anti-Christ)
(Sahih Muslim Book 4, Number 1766)
He who recite Suratul Kahf on yaumul Jumuah (Friday), Allah will shine him with light between the two Fridays.
(Ibn Mardwiyah from Ibn Omar)
In your everyday life,
How many hours have you devoted yourself to your religion?
How many hours you spent reading the Holy Quran?
How many times have you recite zikrullah?
Do you complete your 5 prayers everyday?
How many times you shed tears counting your sins?
Keep the answers to yourself. Only you know. Only He knows.
Assalamualaikum, hey there :)
Life. I can sum it all in three words. It goes on. Yeahh life breaks us, bring us down hard and make us weak. But in the end all that teach us that nothing in life comes easy. Doesn't matter who you are, how old you are, or where you came from there's always something you've faced in life that no one could've ever imagine. So what I'm saying here no matter what happens you must go on. With whatever that's left in you. With every strength left in you.
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Life. I can sum it all in three words. It goes on. Yeahh life breaks us, bring us down hard and make us weak. But in the end all that teach us that nothing in life comes easy. Doesn't matter who you are, how old you are, or where you came from there's always something you've faced in life that no one could've ever imagine. So what I'm saying here no matter what happens you must go on. With whatever that's left in you. With every strength left in you.
Everything that comes your way in life is meant to teach us a lesson. About ourselves, about the people around us. God doesn't simply gave us a hard time for nothing right ? haha and at this very moment I learnt that I can't blame someone else for my wrong decisions. Yeah I've made my mistake and I know that now it's not my fault neither his at the beginning. It's just we're at the wrong place at the wrong time. But I could stop yet I keep on whatever I've done. Yes, that's where I made my mistake. We're so young things could simply went wrong and I'm glad I got my best friend back ! haha *winkwink
It's hard to admit that you're wrong and give into your ego but I manage. Even admitting it to myself is hard enough imagine admitting it to other people ! Goshhh you gotta have lots of guts for that. And remember the outcome wouldn't change unless YOU change. Whatever happened to you in the past, never look back in tears but look back in determination. The determination to change for the better, a better person, a better future.
You might have took a wrong turn along the path but it's never too late to turn back. Yes, it's normal to regret your past but do keep in mind that those wrong turns actually made who you are today. Those mistakes make you reallize that life is not just about the fun, laughs and happy things. Life is tougher than you'd ever thought. Never give up on life. You just gotta find the right rhythm then you'll get a grip. HAVE FAITH
"Life breaks us all. But in the end we're stronger in the broken places" -Hemingway
If you think what you've been through is hell, remember out there somewhere people are dealing with things you can't even imagine. I've known someone that I could say went through hell and survive. I'm shocked that he can be strong though himself were just a child.He grows up without enough love and attention. It's even worse than being an orphan. It's not my secret to tell here. Enough for everyone to know that if you have faith you can overcome even the most tangled problems. If you're reading this you know who you are and I want you to stay strong :)
p/s : Thankyou to those that's always here by my side no matter in what state I am. You guys are what I call friends. And insyaAllah once my friend, forever my friend.
Assalamualaikum ! Hey there friends. It's the holidays and my brother's were home ! yay haha finally some company. I'm bored to death without them -.- And after 4 days harini diorg dah balik asrama. Back to my lonely life again. haha.
Well two days ago, the whole family went out to do some shopping, eat, shopping again. haha. It was fun ! It's been quite a while since I last spent time with them. Alhamdulillah for the family I have. Gambar tak ada sgt just yg ni je time makan, heee
Well two days ago, the whole family went out to do some shopping, eat, shopping again. haha. It was fun ! It's been quite a while since I last spent time with them. Alhamdulillah for the family I have. Gambar tak ada sgt just yg ni je time makan, heee
MY banana split !
he ate two dish ! For God's sake
poyo jeee -.-
haha tengok mama tuuuuuu :P
Assalamualaikum everyone. Lately I feel kinda down and moody all that. Most of my friends already got their offer to further studies and all. I kinda feel left out. Yes, I'm jealous. If they can, why can't I right ? But then I turn on the radio and Miley Cyrus's song was playing on air. The Climb. Listening to the lyrics then I'm starting to realize something.
People have their own road to success. Some get it so easy, some have to face hell to be on top. I was thinking, all this while success have come so easy on my way. Maybe it's time I had to face some difficulties. It's not about how fast I get there but what I have to go through to get there. I might face a little ups and downs but that's life kannn. Semua orang pun ada jatuh bangunnya. Then I started to think positively. It's not my time yet. He had planned everything so well and I have faith in Him. And I know I heard that song was not accidentally. Everything have their own reasons. Sometimes people might not realize but yeahh it's for the best.
InsyaAllah everything will come my way. Cepat atau lambat bukan persoalannya. Kita terima takdir seadanya with a lot of faith and tawakal :)
People have their own road to success. Some get it so easy, some have to face hell to be on top. I was thinking, all this while success have come so easy on my way. Maybe it's time I had to face some difficulties. It's not about how fast I get there but what I have to go through to get there. I might face a little ups and downs but that's life kannn. Semua orang pun ada jatuh bangunnya. Then I started to think positively. It's not my time yet. He had planned everything so well and I have faith in Him. And I know I heard that song was not accidentally. Everything have their own reasons. Sometimes people might not realize but yeahh it's for the best.
InsyaAllah everything will come my way. Cepat atau lambat bukan persoalannya. Kita terima takdir seadanya with a lot of faith and tawakal :)
Fatin Nur Izzati Yusuf <3
Meet Izz ! She's my best friend in this whole wide world ! haha she's pretty alright. And pandai tahap giga. So I met her in 2008, just before masuk MRSM. And guess what ? we actually met during our medical check ups at the hospital. Okay let skip the hillarious part. She'd kill me if I wrote it here. HAHAHAHAHA but man it's so funny I can't help laughing my heart out every time it crossed my mind. Sorry Izz. She's the type of girl who is so hard to put on a smile ! But if you really know her, she's funny, kind and friendly (well not so friendly la). Another thing about her, suka sangat pau aku ! haaaa nasib baik sayang hang tauuuu <3 muah muah.
Nur Saffa Hazwani Sazali <3
Now here's Wanie. This one is Iron Lady. Haha people say looks might be deceiving and it is ! Nampak baik lemah lembut je. Sekali kenal ya Allah garang ya amat -.- Even most of the boys in school don't wanna mess with her. But deep inside she's actually fragile. Senang menangis about the things she love. Mostly I saw her crying sebab hamster dia 'meninggal' lahhhhh. But despite all the yelling, slapping, shouting and stuff I love her just the way she is. As I'm writing this she text me. Crying again because her hamster died in her hands. Innalillah. . .
Adlina Maisarah Mahadi <3
Clumsy Lady. Yes. Clumsy beyond all words ! hahaha Adlina selalu kena marah dgn all of us sebab so clumsy. Poor her. And please be noted she's a drama queen ! I've known her before I went into MRSM and lucky me I met her again in MRSM Kubang Pasu. It's fate dear that He gave me you to be with me through my ups and downs. Thank you for always be there for me when I needed you most. And please stop being so clumsy Adlina, we won't be there for you anymore to keep you in order. Lepas ni kena balajar packing baju sendiri okay. I love you !
Najihah Ramli <3
This is Najihah ! Hehe she's so fun and she always said things that'll make people laugh their heart out. Boyfriend ? She got lots of 'em ! hahaha sorry Jiah jangan marah. Now she's serving the country pegi PLKN, wuuu kat sana jumpa sorang lagi crush ! haha see so many boyfriends. She and I have been in the same class for three years. Dia ni boleh laaa geng dgn Adlina, jenis bangsa heartless Susah sangat nak tengok dia nangis. I can't remember the first time she cried tapi second time sebab cikgu hilangkan peka Chemistry dia. And then takde dah. Me love youu babe ! <3
Farah Liyana Ismail <3
Cik kak sorang susah betul nak cari gambar dia. She hates people taking her pictures tapi suka sangat snap gambar sana sini. Boleh laa kut jadi freelancer. huihui Yes she's one of my best friends. Known her since 2008, she's my first friend in MRSM besides Izz. Katil pun sebelah2 je. haha Currently in PLKN Tasik Meranti, Perlis. Poor you tercampak kat ceruk Perlis tuu. I missed you so much la weh ! And one more thing abouth this girl is she adores cats more than anything ! Kalau boleh nak tidur pun sekali dengan kucing, haha Me love you Falis !
Dear Diary,
Am I that cruel ? I didn't mean to hurt him. Everything was planned. I just couldn't say no. How can a daughter break her mother's heart. I love you but nothing matters more than family. Today was supposed to be a girl's happiest moment but for me only tears of sorrow filled my days. Nothing more. The feeling of emptiness welled up inside of me. My whole world was upside down.
Nobody understands how I feel. I'm torn apart inside out. Everything seems so hard, I can't bear with it anymore. I'm between the devil and the deep blue sea. My decision will effect not only my entire life but also my loved one's. But fate has a better plan for us dear. I love you but we can't be together. I hope someday we'll meet again and I promise to never erase you from my memory. All of our bittersweet memories. Such perfect moments.
I'm sorry dear. I broke your heart into a million pieces. Though I, myself are mending the pieces of my heart. No matter what we do we can't fight destiny and I hope you'll find someone better. Someone worth dying for. Someone that'll cherish you for all your life. I've once said that i can't promise things won't be broken but I will never leave you. But today I broke my promise. I'm sorry.
I'm no longer yours dear. I belong to someone else now. Someone that have sworn to cherish me in sickness and in health. I can't do anything and it kills me. I hope you understand. Maybe this is what's best for us. We can never predict what the future holds for us. Forever you will be in my heart. Things won't be easy but I will try to love my husband though I know it will never be the same as you. You're my first love but some people just can't accept that love is not blind. But they're the ones blinding it with money and position.
There's so much I want to say to you but I don't think all of that matters now. We can't change the past and we can't undo what's been done. We're just human. So sad but true. We can't turn back time. I hope fate fares you well dear. I really do.
He used to be my friend, then my best friend but somehow our hearts were bonded by something called love. We loved each other. We still do. Even though the world's against us but our love stay solid. But now it's all shattered. Broken. Your name will forever be in my heart. Nothing can change this I promise you.
I could see the sorrow in your eyes the moment I walked down the isle. I hope that you could also see that my soul was crying to see you there, on my wedding day. But not as my groom. The perfect silk gown looked so beautiful on my glass-hour body. But deep inside I was not even smiling honestly. Everything on that day was fake except my feelings for you. They will never change. Not in a hundred years.
The memory of you coming to see me for one last time that day is still vivid in my mind. You told me not to worry and just keep moving ahead with my new life even without you by my side. You didn't know how it hurts to hear everything you said knowing I might not hear your voice again. I've never imagine that our last kiss would be on my wedding day. I will always remember the soft touch of your lips pressed against mine. You gave me one last smile then you left and closed the door behind you quietly. I fell on my knees, bursting into tears.
Jennifer <3
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Am I that cruel ? I didn't mean to hurt him. Everything was planned. I just couldn't say no. How can a daughter break her mother's heart. I love you but nothing matters more than family. Today was supposed to be a girl's happiest moment but for me only tears of sorrow filled my days. Nothing more. The feeling of emptiness welled up inside of me. My whole world was upside down.
Nobody understands how I feel. I'm torn apart inside out. Everything seems so hard, I can't bear with it anymore. I'm between the devil and the deep blue sea. My decision will effect not only my entire life but also my loved one's. But fate has a better plan for us dear. I love you but we can't be together. I hope someday we'll meet again and I promise to never erase you from my memory. All of our bittersweet memories. Such perfect moments.
I'm sorry dear. I broke your heart into a million pieces. Though I, myself are mending the pieces of my heart. No matter what we do we can't fight destiny and I hope you'll find someone better. Someone worth dying for. Someone that'll cherish you for all your life. I've once said that i can't promise things won't be broken but I will never leave you. But today I broke my promise. I'm sorry.
I'm no longer yours dear. I belong to someone else now. Someone that have sworn to cherish me in sickness and in health. I can't do anything and it kills me. I hope you understand. Maybe this is what's best for us. We can never predict what the future holds for us. Forever you will be in my heart. Things won't be easy but I will try to love my husband though I know it will never be the same as you. You're my first love but some people just can't accept that love is not blind. But they're the ones blinding it with money and position.
There's so much I want to say to you but I don't think all of that matters now. We can't change the past and we can't undo what's been done. We're just human. So sad but true. We can't turn back time. I hope fate fares you well dear. I really do.
He used to be my friend, then my best friend but somehow our hearts were bonded by something called love. We loved each other. We still do. Even though the world's against us but our love stay solid. But now it's all shattered. Broken. Your name will forever be in my heart. Nothing can change this I promise you.
I could see the sorrow in your eyes the moment I walked down the isle. I hope that you could also see that my soul was crying to see you there, on my wedding day. But not as my groom. The perfect silk gown looked so beautiful on my glass-hour body. But deep inside I was not even smiling honestly. Everything on that day was fake except my feelings for you. They will never change. Not in a hundred years.
The memory of you coming to see me for one last time that day is still vivid in my mind. You told me not to worry and just keep moving ahead with my new life even without you by my side. You didn't know how it hurts to hear everything you said knowing I might not hear your voice again. I've never imagine that our last kiss would be on my wedding day. I will always remember the soft touch of your lips pressed against mine. You gave me one last smile then you left and closed the door behind you quietly. I fell on my knees, bursting into tears.
Jennifer <3
Assalamualaikum :)
So this post ditujukan mainly for girls. Because most guys move on in just 5 minutes but for girls lain pula ceritanya. Basically this post is for my friend, but everyone can maybe take a look and think on what I have to say here. I admit, moving on was not something easy. I've been there, done that. But you see, it's not something impossible.
I know sakitnya peritnya melupakan someone who once meant so much to us. But think again, you have to value yourself more than anything. If you can't even love yourself well, how do you expect to love another ? Girls, if he let you down, he cheated on you, he treat you like you're nothing then why on earth would you turn back and run to him again ? It may sound corny but I know some people just too 'setia' to let go. Well you shouldn't be. Sebab Allah telah menjanjikan lelaki yg baik untuk perempuan yg baik and vice versa. Well I don't know about you guys but cheating trang-tang-tang in public is not a definition of 'baik' in my dictionary. Despite that, semua orang ada buat salah. Forgive and forget.
The first step in moving on is wanting to let go. You can't expect to not care if you're still want to care. For once, you have to be selfish. You have to think about your future. You're so young. There's a lot more to come your way in life. So please girls, don't waste you tears on something so unworthy. You're much more than that. Release yourself from the pain that you created. He's over you. You deserve a man that knows your strength and weaknesses but still love you with all their heart. Not some stupid sweet-talker that only showers you with promises but didn't care to keep any of it. THINK !
Live for today. Not yesterday. Not tomorrow.
We live only once, so do you want to be stuck, brokenhearted ? Let it go. Something better will come. When one thing is taken away from you He will replace it with something even better. InshaaAllah :)
MOVE ON. LET GO.
Yes, it hurts. But it's worth it baby !
So this post ditujukan mainly for girls. Because most guys move on in just 5 minutes but for girls lain pula ceritanya. Basically this post is for my friend, but everyone can maybe take a look and think on what I have to say here. I admit, moving on was not something easy. I've been there, done that. But you see, it's not something impossible.
I know sakitnya peritnya melupakan someone who once meant so much to us. But think again, you have to value yourself more than anything. If you can't even love yourself well, how do you expect to love another ? Girls, if he let you down, he cheated on you, he treat you like you're nothing then why on earth would you turn back and run to him again ? It may sound corny but I know some people just too 'setia' to let go. Well you shouldn't be. Sebab Allah telah menjanjikan lelaki yg baik untuk perempuan yg baik and vice versa. Well I don't know about you guys but cheating trang-tang-tang in public is not a definition of 'baik' in my dictionary. Despite that, semua orang ada buat salah. Forgive and forget.
The first step in moving on is wanting to let go. You can't expect to not care if you're still want to care. For once, you have to be selfish. You have to think about your future. You're so young. There's a lot more to come your way in life. So please girls, don't waste you tears on something so unworthy. You're much more than that. Release yourself from the pain that you created. He's over you. You deserve a man that knows your strength and weaknesses but still love you with all their heart. Not some stupid sweet-talker that only showers you with promises but didn't care to keep any of it. THINK !
Live for today. Not yesterday. Not tomorrow.
We live only once, so do you want to be stuck, brokenhearted ? Let it go. Something better will come. When one thing is taken away from you He will replace it with something even better. InshaaAllah :)
MOVE ON. LET GO.
Yes, it hurts. But it's worth it baby !
Okay. Hey :)
So basically I'm new here. I'll be posting about my life, my feelings and everything that happens around me. feel free to read. Well sometimes maybe I'll write a few love stories. Haha dah lama tak berjiwang buat essay since habis sekolah ni. So wait for my post ! I can't promise to update this blog everyday but I'll try my best. It's always fun to try something new right? so do read my blog in the future :)
Salam perkenalan semua. xoxo
