Spring's morning light has never looked more beautiful than today, graceful and elegant behind the sheer white curtain. The sun rises slowly, bathing the whole city in its light. Waking up on days like this is the best. It feels like nothing could ruin your day, another exciting adventure awaits. Mornings have never been my favourite but on days like this, I love it. On days like this, the quiet hum of the city starting the day is calming. On days like this, I don't mind waking up early.
Dedicated to the love of my life
Meeting you was a happy coincidence, a stroke of luck I never would've expected. My own little serendipity. Fate has a funny way of bringing people together and I am forever grateful. These days I like the rain. This city finally feels like home, even just for a bit. I was never fond of rain but now, whenever it drizzles I think of you, and that makes me happy. I see you in everything around me. I see you in every photo of sunset I take, I see you in the glimmer of clouds at sundown, the sky shining as pretty as your eyes. Each star in the night sky is a written poem for you, light years ahead. I hope every season I spend with you will always feel like spring. To always hear the echo of your laughter through my years, the sound of your heartbeat next to mine. You've shown me the magic of the universe is always near and always within reach. No matter how hard I try, I find it impossible to confine you in boundaries of words and sentences. Nothing feels right, nothing feels enough to do you justice. You are beyond these pages I write, spilled ink and tainted paper. And I hope you'll always be mine, always.
I'm trying to be brave this time, I'm trying to hold on to the hand you reached out to mine. Your fingers are cold from the rain, I'll hold you I'll hold you. Let me be brave for once and don't let go. Let me hold onto this hope a little bit longer, breathe this sacred air a little bit more. I'm trying to be brave, so don't let go and hold my hand. This echo of my heart beating next to yours, I'll remember it forever.
Open wide seas and borderless blue skies, of infinite possibilities and endless dreams. There is calmness in the vast space. To open your eyes and look up and feel insignificant in the grand scheme of things. A lost wandering soul trying to navigate the rush of time and people and memories. Look up, look up, the sky is always there to keep your feet grounded below. And the sea a loyal friend, with its wrecked ships and abandoned vessels it's still a place I'd go back to. Open wide seas and borderless blue skies. Infinite possibilities and endless dreams.
This post is dedicated to the person deserving of everything good the world has to offer.
May is here once again, a whole rotation around the sun. Of rebirth and healing. Of spring blooms and warmth, oh how I've missed spring.
Being 27 feels a little surreal to me. I have never been one to obsess about the future or have solid expectations of where I'd be at certain age but being 27 whoa who would've thought. Life feels like it's just starting for me. I'm still learning to navigate through my emotions and feelings (yes it's still a long ongoing tedious process) amidst adulthood. It's funny to think when I was younger 27 meant being a real adult but now that I'm 27 what's even an adult? A question I ask every passing birthday I guess.
If you ask me how I'm doing right now? I'd say I'm doing okay, good even. Most of my time are occupied with work and then consuming media that interests me. Though I must admit there are times when I feel helpless, empty, these feelings are not unfamiliar to me. They come and go, not as often as it used to but often enough that I'm actively looking for ways to get out of this endless cycle. But despite that, I still think I'm doing relatively good mentally. Career wise, things are moving for me. It's gonna be a year soon and it has honestly been an experience. Working with kids in this field specifically too, opened my eyes to a lot of things. I've learned a lot in this short time and I hope to be able to continue to equip myself with amazing knowledge in the future as well. It's a tough job, so I always need to remind myself why I'm doing this. It's so crazy where life takes you.
I'm still taking life one day at a time. I didn't think I changed a lot since the past year but after a lot of reflection I'm actually not the same person as I was and maybe that's a good thing as well. Manifesting a lot of good things my way this month and hopefully for the upcoming months too. Being 27 feels a little crazy to me, seeing my friends get married, bought a house and some quit their jobs and prioritising their mental health. We're all living and surviving in each of our own capacity, at our own pace. Though I will admit there's a still a sense of societal pressure reaching a certain age but I'm glad to be surrounded by supportive people around me. I'm always inspired by my circle of friends and my family to always be a better person, the best version of myself and I'm forever grateful. Looking back, I've lived a good life despite my lowest days or a horrible year, I've lived it and I'm here right now so that must've count for something right? I used to dread turning 30 like whenever I think of it I'll get so depressed and I feel like I'm running out of time. Time for what? I don't even know, it's not like I have some grand plan I gotta execute before I turn 30 I don't even know what I was so afraid of. It has been a little easier to welcome my birthdays now.
I love birthdays, it's a time for me to look back how was my year and revisit my new year resolutions, if there's any. I love my birthday, I love May, the month of spring, rebirth and reset. May May always bring you blooms and sunshine all year long.
