Sophrosyne

I woke up feeling sad. Chest constricting, breathless. It hurts, everything hurts. Some mornings, I wake up with beads of sweat on my forehead and heartbeats faster than my exhale and inhale after a morning run, and today is one of those days. My limbs heavy and it's less to do with physical fatigue but emotional ones. I woke up wishing I'm still asleep, swept away into a faraway dream where a bed of roses doesn't have thorns. I woke up wishing a parallel universe exist, where we walk hand in hand and set the world aflame. It's one of those mornings. The one where I wish I'd wake up to your face next to mine, dark hair fanning soft features. The twirls of morning rays, graceful, casting a soft glow to where you lie next to me. The bed sheet next to me remain cold and empty. Good morning angel, I know you're doing okay.

Hi. It's been a while hasn't it? It's been forever since I actually write about what's going on in my life and don't worry this post isn't gonna break that streak. Just a little hello to say that I'm still doing okay. A little bit out of it honestly, with exams starting tomorrow and I am nowhere ready.

It's May

My favourite month of the year.

Namjoon's right. I've always thought May as the middle of the year. Not June, not July. Funny isn't it. For me May is like a line I'm eager to cross, but nervous at the same time.

Let's hope this month continues to bring me joy and happiness albeit suffering through exams.

And hey, I'm going back home this year :)