Sophrosyne

"Once a upon a time, there lived a beautiful girl. She was allowed to do anything, except go to the edge of the cliff, where she could fall. One day, out of curiosity, she went near the cliff. The closer she came to the edge, the more she could hear, the more she could see, the more she could feel. Finally she stood at the very edge and she saw light, then she leaned to touch it. But she slipped, and she flew!"

People lose friends all the time, what's the big deal. But not me, I have never really lose friends until quite recently. Maybe it's because I have very few people I call friends, the rest, acquaintance. I've heard and read numerous stories about people losing friends along the way of growing up and I know sooner or later I'm bound to experience the same situation. But it never occurs to me that it would be this fast, this instance where I haven't even reach 21 yet. And I absolutely have no idea it hurts this much. A whole one year, and I still flinch every time your name pops up.

That's actually a phrase from THG's trilogy, but I slightly change the word 'Panem' to 'happy'.
Have you ever thought of being happy every day? Or do you have a goal, that if you achieve  a certain target you'll be happy? Some people have their happy times set and fixed, for example;  people waited for the weekends where they will be free from work or school. Some people, enjoy whatever they're doing that they're continuously happy throughout the weekdays. What happiness means to you?

What are your thoughts about this? It occurs to me this question when I watched Paper Towns a few weeks back when Margo asked Q;

M: What are your plans? You said you have plans

Q: Well I'm graduating this fall, get in to med school and be a doctor. Then maybe get married and have kids by I'm thirty.

M: And then you'll be happy?

Q: What?

M: When you're thirty? In twelve years, when you have kids, a career, then you'll be happy. Is that what you're actually saying?

Q: Umm yeah I guess. yeah

M: Isn't there anything that could make you happy now? It's the saddest thing I've ever heard.

Wow, that's something. Then I realise, I've always anticipate big things, big events, expecting that I'll be happy as soon as I've achieved or reached that, but did I treasure the little things along the way? I didn't realise that I force myself to hold on and suffer by saying;

"It's okay, hang on little bit more, the holidays are near,"

"The weekends are here, how exciting!"

But then it arrives, I admit that I'm happy what I've been waiting or anticipating is actually here, but the joy doesn't last. As soon as the holidays/weekends over, I'm back to suffering and misery. What a way to live your life. So slow down for a while, and take a look around. There's always something to cherish and be glad about your life around you on a daily basis. Try to be happy doing the 'little' things instead of just waiting for the 'big' things. Not that I'm saying you shouldn't anticipate big things, it's always healthy to pamper yourself once in a while.

So let's be happy. Cheers to many more happy days!

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