An amazing thing happens when you get honest with yourself and start doing what you love, what makes you happy. Your life literally slows down. You stop wishing for the weekends. You stop merely looking forward to special events. You begin to live in each moment and you start feeling like a human being. You just ride the wave that is life, with this feeling of contentment and joy. You move fluidly, steadily, calm and grateful. A veil is lifted, and a whole new perspective is born.
No. It's not beautiful. Yes it is. Partially. Oh I don't even know. I can safely say that it's beautiful in it's own way. Some of it consumes you. Making you suffocate. It's a drug you can never stop wanting. Beautiful but deadly. Indulging myself in these romance novel these past few days are making me feel empty but so full of emotions, lonely but not wanting company and missing a small part of my past where I have someone whom I can call mine. Romance is so not healthy for me at the moment. It manipulates my feelings goddamit I'm so confusing. I can't even understand myself *cries*
Some people said that it's impossible for two people of the opposite gender to likely become the best of friends without falling in love. Fitrah manusia katanya. I don't think I entirely agree with that. Yes it is fitrah manusia lelaki dan perempuan itu saling attract one another. but friendship is one kind of mutual attraction too. I admit throughout my WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE SEPANJANG 20 TAHUN ni of course I've had feelings for some of my guy friends but it's not love. It's the longing of wanting someone to listen to you to always be there for you. A partner to act silly with. It's not love. It's a strong bond of friendship. We often salah tafsir these feelings with love thus sometimes ruining the friendship between this boy and girl.
I've got a male best friend. No. Actually I got a few of male best friends. And I am entirely absolutely sure that I won't be falling for any of them 'baboons' hahahahaha (no offense) Not because they're not attractive but because i don't date FRIENDS! And they won't date me either LOL we're cool.
With these guys I can talk literally about everything. EVERTHING. From dirty jokes to religious talk real quick! They're like my girl friends except I cant hug them or touch them lol
so yeah GIRLS and BOYS can be the best of friends! xoxo
I've got a male best friend. No. Actually I got a few of male best friends. And I am entirely absolutely sure that I won't be falling for any of them 'baboons' hahahahaha (no offense) Not because they're not attractive but because i don't date FRIENDS! And they won't date me either LOL we're cool.
With these guys I can talk literally about everything. EVERTHING. From dirty jokes to religious talk real quick! They're like my girl friends except I cant hug them or touch them lol
so yeah GIRLS and BOYS can be the best of friends! xoxo
Rindu. Pada siapa tidak pula ku tahu. Mungkin sekadar permainan perasaan yang terkadang hilang sesat seketika. Oh how I wish it's that easy. These few days that one particular name keep popping up. Crazy huh after all this while after what I've done. This is all just a stupid game. And I quit playing long before I realize.
Cuma kadang kadang the heart wants what it can't have. What's the thrill anyway if it's the other way around. Never mind, class is about to start. I'll get over this 'hangover' thingy no worries.
xoxo
Cuma kadang kadang the heart wants what it can't have. What's the thrill anyway if it's the other way around. Never mind, class is about to start. I'll get over this 'hangover' thingy no worries.
xoxo
"And like a fool I thought that we could've been something
But you're in love with her and I will never get a chance and fuck that's unfair"
I'll get over you.
soon.
I hope.
But you're in love with her and I will never get a chance and fuck that's unfair"
I'll get over you.
soon.
I hope.
The weight
of a simple human emotion
weighs me down
more than the tank ever did
The pain
It's determined and demanding
To ache
But I'm okay
I don't want to let this go
I don't wanna lose control
I just wanna see the stars
With you
And I don't wanna say goodbye
Someone tell me why
I just wanna see the stars
With you
You lost
A part of your existence
In a war
Against yourself
The lights
They light in lights of sadness
Telling you
It's time to go
I don't wanna let this go
I don't wanna lose control
I just wanna see the stars
I don't wanna lose control
I just wanna see the stars
With you
And I don't wanna say goodbye
Someone tell me why
I just wanna see the stars
With you
Don't give it up just yet
Stay grand for one more minute
Don't give it up just yet
Stay grand
I don't wanna let this go
I don't wanna lose control
I just wanna see the stars
I don't wanna lose control
I just wanna see the stars
With you
And I don't wanna say goodbye
Someone tell me why
I just wanna see the stars
With you
With you
Inspired by The Fault In Our Stars by John Green
Having a Coke with You by Frank O’Hara
Having a Coke with You
is even more fun than going to San Sebastian, Irún, Hendaye, Biarritz, Bayonne
or being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona
partly because in your orange shirt you look like a better happier St. Sebastian
partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for yoghurt
partly because of the fluorescent orange tulips around the birches
partly because of the secrecy our smiles take on before people and statuary
it is hard to believe when I’m with you that there can be anything as still
as solemn as unpleasantly definitive as statuary when right in front of it
in the warm New York 4 o’clock light we are drifting back and forth
between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles
and the portrait show seems to have no faces in it at all, just paint
you suddenly wonder why in the world anyone ever did them
I look
at you and I would rather look at you than all the portraits in the world
except possibly for the Polish Rider occasionally and anyway it’s in the Frick
which thank heavens you haven’t gone to yet so we can go together the first time
and the fact that you move so beautifully more or less takes care of Futurism
just as at home I never think of the Nude Descending a Staircase or
at a rehearsal a single drawing of Leonardo or Michelangelo that used to wow me
and what good does all the research of the Impressionists do them
when they never got the right person to stand near the tree when the sun sank
or for that matter Marino Marini when he didn’t pick the rider as carefully
as the horse
it seems they were all cheated of some marvelous experience
which is not going to go wasted on me which is why I am telling you about it
"I don't know why people like being in a relationship because at this point, I certainly don't like it at all"
"If I sing out loud around you I'm completely 110% comfortable with you 'cause I can't sing for shit"
Ehehehe. True that mate :)
Ehehehe. True that mate :)
Hi.
Been busy. And when I say BUSY I mean REALLY busy hahaha. With all the assignments quizzes tests and everything pheww I barely got time to stop and catch a breath *drama queen*
So actually I've got nothing new to update here. Just checking out my old dusty blog leulz >.<
Ahaaa ! I haven't updated about my new life here in Shah Alam right ? hihi everything's fine until now. The environment, friends and all were not that bad. My housemates here are AWESOME I tell you ! wohoo thankful enough for that :p
Studies? well it's not hard but I can't say it's easy either. Based on my midsem last month, seems like I gotta double up my efforts. Haven't achieved my target yet and it's kinda frustrating actually. Surrounded by these fantastically geniuses and hardworking people is kinda stressing me out. But I'll manage :) in shaa Allah.
*sebenarnya ni curi masa update blog when I'm supposed to finish up my assignments*
Okay actually I've got tonnes of crap to spill here but not today. Haha. Gotta hit the sack PRONTO !
Esok kelas pagi bhaiii -.- me no likey. Plusss the weather lately is just so tempting for me to stay in bed. Hujannnn sejukkkkk hmmmm
K dah merapu -.-
until next time :)
(2:14am)060913
Been busy. And when I say BUSY I mean REALLY busy hahaha. With all the assignments quizzes tests and everything pheww I barely got time to stop and catch a breath *drama queen*
So actually I've got nothing new to update here. Just checking out my old dusty blog leulz >.<
Ahaaa ! I haven't updated about my new life here in Shah Alam right ? hihi everything's fine until now. The environment, friends and all were not that bad. My housemates here are AWESOME I tell you ! wohoo thankful enough for that :p
Studies? well it's not hard but I can't say it's easy either. Based on my midsem last month, seems like I gotta double up my efforts. Haven't achieved my target yet and it's kinda frustrating actually. Surrounded by these fantastically geniuses and hardworking people is kinda stressing me out. But I'll manage :) in shaa Allah.
*sebenarnya ni curi masa update blog when I'm supposed to finish up my assignments*
Okay actually I've got tonnes of crap to spill here but not today. Haha. Gotta hit the sack PRONTO !
Esok kelas pagi bhaiii -.- me no likey. Plusss the weather lately is just so tempting for me to stay in bed. Hujannnn sejukkkkk hmmmm
K dah merapu -.-
until next time :)
(2:14am)060913
Heart.
Easily hurt. Fragile. Once broken , it'll never be the same again. I've no reason for all that happened between us. We drift apart. Then my feelings fade away. My fault ? Yeahh maybe, bcs you'd put the blame on me anyway. You can say whatever you want or pray whatever you think I deserve. Like you said, dunia itu adil. But it doesnt mean you can force people into accepting you. Kalau mcm tu mana keadilan tu ? *sigh* I hate it when every little thing you said affected me in ways nothing ever could. For God's sake I really wish I didn't met you 4 years ago.