Hi,

I'm writing this just a little past midnight on my birthday. If this is posted, it'll be my first post on this blog this year. I haven't been on here in so long it feels a little awkward doing this, but I wanna keep this blog up. I've been writing on here since 2012, that's 8 years. Isn't it crazy how time works? You feel like it's stretched out so long, other times you wonder where it went. In between those moments, we've all changed. We grow and we lived, and throughout all that I've always had this blog with me. This is the closest thing to a journal I've ever had. Back in high school, I used to write diaries. I still have them I think. Countless books filled with littering song lyrics and bits and pieces of that naive teenage girl I was back then. Life was so simple, I wish 15 year old Nadia knew that. 

I'm 25 now and I'm still learning about myself everyday. When I was young, I imagined 25 year old Nadia would be married, have a stable life, an adult. Basically nothing like where I am right now. But I'm not sad about it. My views on marriage has changed and it'll probably change again in the next few years. Maybe in the future I'll read this again and laugh at how stupid 25 year old me was. For now I'm grateful for everything I have. 

My life is far from perfect, I still have things I need to do and want to do. 2020 might be a glitch in the system but our life is not, it's still ongoing and our time is still ticking. May always feels like half of the year has gone by, at least for me. My birthday has always been a reflection of what I've done for the past half of the year. Nothing much changed, but that's okay too. I might not have a lifetime to live, but if I wake up tomorrow I'm grateful to be given another day. I know most of us are going through tough times right now. With everything that's going on I hope we're all a little kinder, to other people and to ourselves! 

Happy birthday to me, and I'm wishing everyone a great ending, let's kick 2020's butt!