It's not because I didn't care, my feelings for you will never change. But all this time it feels like I'm the only one trying, I'm the only one making you happy, it's always about you. Can't you see that? I don't even know how you feel towards me. I tried to do everything to make you see how much I love you yet you never seem to notice that, at least I don't know you notice it or not. I understand you're busy with all the exams lately and I don't blame you for that. It's not because of that, even before the exams I don't see you pay much attention for me. Is it so hard for you to appreciate the little things I did for you? is it so hard  to reply my goodnight messages? to say that you love me? I tried to change for you. I tried not to do the things you hated, tried to be what you wanted me to be . Why can't you change for me? And now I give up I just can't handle all the emotions anymore. I'm tired of crying myself to sleep. I've kept it to myself for so long now and it's killing me slowly. It makes no difference, if I'm with you or not. Even if I am, you still treat me like I'm nobody so what's the point. It hurts so much being ignored. Feels like I'm not important in your life. Yeahh maybe I am and I'm just too stupid to realise it earlier. I'm sorry I can't be the girl of your dreams. I don't even think I'll ever be good enough. Yes, I'm stubborn, I have high ego, I'm selfish. Everything you said about me was right. But that's all because I only wanted your attention, wanted you to care about me. And I guess that's just too hard for you to do. It's okay. I'm letting you go for a better life. You don't have to put up with me anymore. You don't have to to deal with me anymore. You don't have to worry about making me happy anymore. Please just live your life and I'll live mine. Maybe in the future if we're meant to be then we'll meet again.

I don't know why I'm writing this entry, I know you'll never read it :'(

Assalamualaikum :')