Sophrosyne

Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah. I got it !

In shaa Allah. I'll try my best :)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Segala puji bagi Allah yang menjadikan hari ini sejahtera, dan telah terbit matahari dari tempatnya. Ya Allah, berikan lah aku kebaikan hari ini, dan jauhkan lah aku dari keburukan hari ini. Ya Allah tenangi lah hati ku dengan cahaya hidayah-Mu, terus menerus dengan rahmat-Mu. Ya Tuhan Ya Maha Pengasih. Pandanglah aku dengan belas kasihan-Mu. Terima lah taubat ku dan ampunilah semua dosa ku.

"Something so little could go a long way"

Assalamualaikum !

It's Friday !
And guess what....it's my birthday! hahaha ohmy I'm being so dramatic.

Yeahh 10th May 2013. I'm officially turning 18 :) Alhamdulillah.

Thank youu for all the wishes I really appreciate it. Thankyou girls, singing a happy birthday song for me on skype haha drpd mengantuk terus celik !

I miss everyone. I miss my friends. Last year at this exact date, I'm crying really bad after a few lovely and adorable people pull a prank on me kannnn -.- hahaha anyways I'll remember it forever ! dah siap baju aku dicontengnya sekali kan girls. Creative betuiiii.

Hopefully, my life will bring me happiness and lotsa fun journey. Well eventually turning 18 means I've grown up. I'm not a kid anymore. Gotta start making life changing decisions. I hope I'm prepared for that, physically and mentally :)

In shaa Allah.


Sanah helwah Nadiah :*

This is the translation of Surah Al-A'laa (The Most High). One of my most favorite. Simply calming and I've always recite this verse whenever I feel like I'm starting to drift apart and got drown in worldly matter. I first heard this beautiful recitation by my senior, Abang Latiff during Form One. And it remains to be my favorite until now :)

Read it. Understands it.

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

"Exatl in the name of your Lord, the most High: [87:1]

"Who created and proportioned" [87:2]

"And Who destined and (then) guided" [87:3]

"And Who brings out the pasture" [87:4]

"And makes it black stubble" [87:5]

"We will make you recite, (O Muhammad) and you will not forget" [87:6]

"Except what Allah should will. Indeed, He knows what is declared and what is hidden" [87:7]

"And we will ease you towards ease" [87:8]

"So remind if the reminder should benefit" [87:9]

"He who fears (Allah) will be reminded" [87:10]

"But the wretched one will avoid it" [87:11]

"(He) who will (enter and) burn in the greatest Fire" [87:12]

"Neither dying therein nor living" [87:13]

"He is certainly succeeded who purifies himself" [87:14]

"And mention the names of his Lord and prays" [87:15]

"But you prefer the worldly life" [87:16]

"While the Hereafter is better and enduring" [87:17]

"Indeed this is a former scriptures" [87:18]

"The scriptures of Abraham and Moses" [87:19]


* Rasulullah s.a.w akan membaca surah-surah yang mengandungi kalimah tasbih setiap malam.
Sabda baginda ; "sesungguhnya pada surah yang terdapat kalimah tasbih terdapat satu ayat yang lebih baik daripada seribu ayat"
Seorang sahabat 'Ubai bin Ka'ab mengatakan : Surah utama yg mengandungi tasbih ialah Surah Al-A'laa. (Riwayat At-Tirmizi dan An-Nasai)

Hye. It's 16th April. Tuesday.

Got an interview today. More like a test. Do pray for me :')

Pray that I'll get the scholar.

Even if I don't, pray that I'll take it with open heart. No regrets.

"Rezeki ada di mana-mana. Setiap orang, rezekinya tak sama"

Alhamdulillah. Syukur sangat2 I got an offer ! I didn't get psychology like I always wanted but this is good enough. I got an offer in Optometry. 1 year foundation in MSU then 3 years in UK. Actually my mom picked this course for me. And since I know my result are not qualified for the course that I wanted so why not give it a try. And it seems kinda interesting too. Alhamdulillah I'm glad I listened to my mom. Thank you mom :)

After doing a few readings I found out that Malaysia is in highly demand in Optometry. This course is not yet entirely explored and many people don't have any idea of what it's all about. People might think an optometrist just open a shop of spectacles and whatsoever. But truth is, it's much much more than that ! every hospital needs an optometrist and an opthalmologist (I'm not sure of the spelling sorry). They're both in the same field but optometrist can't perform surgery. So we basically examines and studies the condition of the eyes. There's more specific matter such in Neuro Visual, perception of depth and colour. Optometrists examines the condition of the eyes to detect and diagnose eye problems and diseases. And those that have laser correction are also things that fall under the jurisdiction of an optometrist. Well that's all I know, and surely it excites me to learn more about it, in shaa Allah.

My interview will be on this 16th April. which is TOMORROW. Please, do pray for me :')

And to those having their interview soon, Good luck too !

" La Tahzan Nadiah, you're stronger than you think and you've got to have faith"

It's not because I didn't care, my feelings for you will never change. But all this time it feels like I'm the only one trying, I'm the only one making you happy, it's always about you. Can't you see that? I don't even know how you feel towards me. I tried to do everything to make you see how much I love you yet you never seem to notice that, at least I don't know you notice it or not. I understand you're busy with all the exams lately and I don't blame you for that. It's not because of that, even before the exams I don't see you pay much attention for me. Is it so hard for you to appreciate the little things I did for you? is it so hard  to reply my goodnight messages? to say that you love me? I tried to change for you. I tried not to do the things you hated, tried to be what you wanted me to be . Why can't you change for me? And now I give up I just can't handle all the emotions anymore. I'm tired of crying myself to sleep. I've kept it to myself for so long now and it's killing me slowly. It makes no difference, if I'm with you or not. Even if I am, you still treat me like I'm nobody so what's the point. It hurts so much being ignored. Feels like I'm not important in your life. Yeahh maybe I am and I'm just too stupid to realise it earlier. I'm sorry I can't be the girl of your dreams. I don't even think I'll ever be good enough. Yes, I'm stubborn, I have high ego, I'm selfish. Everything you said about me was right. But that's all because I only wanted your attention, wanted you to care about me. And I guess that's just too hard for you to do. It's okay. I'm letting you go for a better life. You don't have to put up with me anymore. You don't have to to deal with me anymore. You don't have to worry about making me happy anymore. Please just live your life and I'll live mine. Maybe in the future if we're meant to be then we'll meet again.

I don't know why I'm writing this entry, I know you'll never read it :'(

Assalamualaikum :')

Woke up early. Well at home it's considered early at this time. Back in maktab it's feels kinda late sometimes haha. Can't believe I'll be getting my results in just 3 days. Honestly I'm scared. Yeahhh tipu lah kalau kata tak cuak kan but I don't actually mind my results but what I'm scared most is other people's perception towards me. Especially my family and I'm not talking about the parents. It's all the relatives. Haihh went back to Penang a few days ago and they're all "ehh Nadiah results bila keluar? takpa dia budak pandai confirm straight A's punyaa" blerghhh it's kinda annoying -.- but what else can I do but just smile in return. I appreciates that they're praying for my good results but sometimes I just don't like the sarcastic tone. Doesn't mean that I've had all straight A's, I'm the super intelligent girl. and someone actually says this in my face, "kalau tak dapat straight A's malu lahh sekolah pandai2 result biasa ja" and I was like wtf ! Nasib baik I still respect that someone as an elderly, mulut aku boleh tahan jugak tauuu. Deyy cakap tu fikir la perasaan org sama. Sekolah pandai tak menjamin student yg pandai. For someone your age you should've known better. Results are just numbers and letters on papers. It doesn't mean you can't be successful with bad results. The real world is not just about exams, if you can't handle life exams are nothing. What we learn in schools shouldn't be just about exams. I hate exam-oriented people. Seriously.

Maybe I'm getting a bit paranoid erghhh whatever I don't care I just wanna spill it out here, I don't have anybody to talk to. Better speak with a blank page at least it listens till the end. 

Assalamualaikum :)

Hey there ! It's been a while since my last entry. Okay now it's March already. Today it's 3rd March ! Ohmaigaddd how fast time flies. Only 16 days to go for the SPM results to be announced. Sincerely, I have no confidence at all with my results this time ! I'm scared, anything can happen and I sure hope whatever I get for my result, I'll be able to accept it with open heart. insyaAllah :)

Do pray for me and my friends, hopefully we'll be grateful with whatever we get. Allah knows best :)

Ninety-v , all the best ! We've done our best, insyaAllah we'll get what we deserve.
SPM candidate 2012 , may we achieve our goals together, InsyaAllah !