Hi, we are back to our usual schedule, yepp another post of me making a list. I guess, this will be an updated version, not very original of me but I needed to get this out of my system and I find making lists still works for me and I'm gonna do just that. Been feeling anxious lately, the worst part is me not doing anything about it and wallowing in self pity and loathing mmh fun :)

A little list of things I'm grateful for in the first half of 2019 –

• I may not have the most perfect family but I'm grateful to have very understanding parents, who let me take on life at my own pace and make my own decisions, who trusts me and believe in me.
• I'm very thankful for the friends I have, both near and far. I haven't been the greatest friend lately but I'm still so grateful for these people around me. 
• Being privileged enough to enjoy my hobbies and actually do stuff I'm interested in. 
• Cannot express how thankful I am to be born in this lifetime, with all these people and to experience all these little adventures even though most of the time I wanna give up just disappear. But there are moments when it feels like this is all worth it, this will all be worth it.
• I'm grateful for the health and well being of myself and the people I love
• Thankful that I am equipped and in tuned enough with my body, I've been trying to keep track of my mental health and physical health more closely. Learning new things and unlearn some unhealthy habits. 
• Some days it's hard just waking up and thinking there's a life ahead of me waiting to be lived but that's just how things work for me. Some days it's easier than others and that's okay. 
• Eventho I don't write as much anymore on this blog, writing is still one of my best outlet to express myself. I still write in the privacy of my notes, scribbles on my phone and long forgotten drafts on my twitter. I find that I'm more honest when I write for myself and not the world to see. 
• I'm grateful for my cat, honest to God bless cats and pets in general.