I did a thread on twitter on the my best memories of 2017 and I figured why not do it here too with a little tweak, so here's my 2017's worst memories/things that have happened to me during the course of the year in no particular order. Let's see which one outweighs the other.

1. I lost my grandfather to cancer
2. I drifted away from some people
3. Basically everything that's got to do with dealing with my landlady and our rented house
4. MARA cut off my allowance 
5. I still have no clue about my future
6. I hated myself for the things I couldn't change
7. I let people project their feelings and expectations onto me
8. I've lost so much weight I think I'm sick
9. I cried a lot this year (surprisingly more than 2014)
10. I wasted so much money on unnecessary things
11. I'm back to not wanting to talk to people and wallowing in sadness for days sometimes weeks
12. People I trusted lied to me
13. Jonghyun's death
14. I didn't read as much as I used to
15. I stopped doing the things I liked
16. I'm in a very long writing slump, I hate everything I write
17. I didn't go out to see sunsets as much I used to anymore
18. Toxic people
19. I drifted away from God
20. I didn't keep in contact with my parents that often
21. Growing up
22. Still haven't learn to talk to people about my problems
23. Didn't spend as much time with myself
24. Too busy attending to other people and forgetting to take care of myself
25. I expected people to love me the way I love them but wow when will you learn Nadiah :')