This is a story of what if and what could've been. Two hearts beating as one but never in the same rhythm. Two shadows intertwining and all you can see is one big unreachable void. Two souls dancing and twirling, almost touching but somehow always missing each other.

We grew up to be the person we are today. Meeting and missing, a constant thing in our lives. I didn't grew up with you holding my hand but sometimes, you knocked on my door asking if I'd like to hangout when Christmas break started. We didn't wish each other happy birthday but I've received a letter once and two birthday cards. A few years later I called on your birthday. I'm not sure if you remember. 25 years down the road and we've been a perpetual buzz in each other's life, existing but not always present. Changing but at the same time unvarying.

Do you remember that one summer when we were 16. You took me to the beach and we spent the whole day eating ice cream until our stomach hurts. I didn't remember telling you how I love the ocean but it's you, of course you'd knew. I wonder if you still remember. We went on a ferris wheel ride. You told me you've never been on one and we spent the whole ride making up scenarios for random people we saw from above. That day, I learned to measure my life in laughters.

Growing up, I've received so much love from everyone around me, I hope I've loved enough in return. Family, friends, the people that matters. I hope I'm loving enough I hope I'm giving enough. Amidst the love I've received, yours is something I treasure most. You loving me is the constant reminder that despite anything, we're still in each other's life. You loving me is comforting. Your love doesn't ask reciprocation, your love is endless and drowning.

No matter what path we took, we've always found our way back to each other. I hope we still do because lately I've been missing you a little too much. These days I realise I've been measuring my life in the rising and setting of the sun. I've spent too many sunrises alone since the last time we talked and purple have always been your favourite colour.