It's 6.43pm and here I am looking out to the horizon where the sea meets the sky. I haven't felt this state of tranquility in such a long time. The sun is out, in all its glory, proud and bold in the cloudless sky. The wind is flirty and teasing, kissing my cheeks like a lover's first kiss. Everything feels right. I feel like I belong, my feet in the sand and the salty breeze in my face. I've always loved oceans and seas but this, this is different. It's like falling in love for the first time and today, I remember why I love beaches so much. Maybe I've been deprived of the ocean for so long, which explains this feeling that's washing over me. I'm so overwhelmed and I feel like my heart's just waiting to burst out of pure ecstasy. I've never known it's possible to be so happy and content with just being in the mere presence of salt water and sand granules, and the sun shining over you.

I don't wanna go home. I don't wanna go back to doing nothing in that small city town. I wanna smell like the ocean and have sun kissed skin for all I care. I wanna watch the sun rises and sets by its horizon everyday and bathe in the sound of waves splashing the shore. I don't wanna go home.

It's nice feeling like you're in love with something. Knowing that it'll always be there for you whenever you return. Just like some people, always being there. I know. I know it by heart that even if I crash and burn, these people will always be there, they've always been there. My short trip to the beach today feels like meeting your loved ones after a long separation. That desperate feeling of wanting to absorb everything and anything because you know, they can't stay. They're not here to stay. Trying to touch and feel them as long as you can, every fleeting second counts. I guess I can relate to that so much. These days I've felt so sad and mellow with so much people around me leaving. Graduating, marriage. Those are supposed to be happy things, but I found myself feeling sad for some reason. Having to let go of people in my life. I've always been attached to people, whether I show it or not. Today, the sea reminds me that sometimes those short encounter are so much more meaningful because you learn to appreciate it while it lasts.