Sophrosyne

It's 5:26 a.m and I still haven't slept. Can't sleep actually. A lot of things going on my mind. Mainly about college. I'm scared excited ecstatic sad nervous. Name it. It's all mixed up ! I'll be leaving Kedah in a few hours then HELLO Shah Alam ! hahaha k macam over pulak en. Tapi cuak gak ahh nak start a new life ni. I don't know anybody there ! and one thing's for sure I kinda sucks at making new friends. Yeahh friendly tu takla sangat but entahh laa. People's first impression usually describe me as 'sombong' or 'berlagak' or whatever yang sama maksud lahh. urghh -.- I AM NOT ! hahaha and I actually made a new friend just now. Zakiah Ezanie. She's going to MSU too but she's doing Medic. Feels kinda nice to have a friend sebab memang sumpah tk kenal sesapa punnn kat MSU. haha now takde lah awkward sangat. Alhamdulillah. And she's from Johor ! Aaaaa eager but at the same time scared. Hmm how can you describe that :p

One thing's for sure I'll miss my family. Very much. And my house. My bed. My room. My fridge ((lol like I owned them)) I'll miss Kedah. I'll miss staying up very late at night watching movies or skype-ing with my crazy babes. But that's fine I'll get to see them real soon! in shaa Allah. Puncak Alam dekat jee. Cuma Izz dekat INTI lah jauh sikit and Adlina dekat Sunway College. weheee !

Sooooooooo....

*to be continue*




lol just kidding.
Wish me luck in MSU !
Assalamualaikum. Untill next time :)

Maybe not today

Or tomorrow

Or even in a year

but eventually

things will turn up

You will get better and

Be able to look back

And say with relief

"I made it"

-Neurolove-

Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah. I got it !

In shaa Allah. I'll try my best :)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Segala puji bagi Allah yang menjadikan hari ini sejahtera, dan telah terbit matahari dari tempatnya. Ya Allah, berikan lah aku kebaikan hari ini, dan jauhkan lah aku dari keburukan hari ini. Ya Allah tenangi lah hati ku dengan cahaya hidayah-Mu, terus menerus dengan rahmat-Mu. Ya Tuhan Ya Maha Pengasih. Pandanglah aku dengan belas kasihan-Mu. Terima lah taubat ku dan ampunilah semua dosa ku.

"Something so little could go a long way"

Assalamualaikum !

It's Friday !
And guess what....it's my birthday! hahaha ohmy I'm being so dramatic.

Yeahh 10th May 2013. I'm officially turning 18 :) Alhamdulillah.

Thank youu for all the wishes I really appreciate it. Thankyou girls, singing a happy birthday song for me on skype haha drpd mengantuk terus celik !

I miss everyone. I miss my friends. Last year at this exact date, I'm crying really bad after a few lovely and adorable people pull a prank on me kannnn -.- hahaha anyways I'll remember it forever ! dah siap baju aku dicontengnya sekali kan girls. Creative betuiiii.

Hopefully, my life will bring me happiness and lotsa fun journey. Well eventually turning 18 means I've grown up. I'm not a kid anymore. Gotta start making life changing decisions. I hope I'm prepared for that, physically and mentally :)

In shaa Allah.


Sanah helwah Nadiah :*

This is the translation of Surah Al-A'laa (The Most High). One of my most favorite. Simply calming and I've always recite this verse whenever I feel like I'm starting to drift apart and got drown in worldly matter. I first heard this beautiful recitation by my senior, Abang Latiff during Form One. And it remains to be my favorite until now :)

Read it. Understands it.

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

"Exatl in the name of your Lord, the most High: [87:1]

"Who created and proportioned" [87:2]

"And Who destined and (then) guided" [87:3]

"And Who brings out the pasture" [87:4]

"And makes it black stubble" [87:5]

"We will make you recite, (O Muhammad) and you will not forget" [87:6]

"Except what Allah should will. Indeed, He knows what is declared and what is hidden" [87:7]

"And we will ease you towards ease" [87:8]

"So remind if the reminder should benefit" [87:9]

"He who fears (Allah) will be reminded" [87:10]

"But the wretched one will avoid it" [87:11]

"(He) who will (enter and) burn in the greatest Fire" [87:12]

"Neither dying therein nor living" [87:13]

"He is certainly succeeded who purifies himself" [87:14]

"And mention the names of his Lord and prays" [87:15]

"But you prefer the worldly life" [87:16]

"While the Hereafter is better and enduring" [87:17]

"Indeed this is a former scriptures" [87:18]

"The scriptures of Abraham and Moses" [87:19]


* Rasulullah s.a.w akan membaca surah-surah yang mengandungi kalimah tasbih setiap malam.
Sabda baginda ; "sesungguhnya pada surah yang terdapat kalimah tasbih terdapat satu ayat yang lebih baik daripada seribu ayat"
Seorang sahabat 'Ubai bin Ka'ab mengatakan : Surah utama yg mengandungi tasbih ialah Surah Al-A'laa. (Riwayat At-Tirmizi dan An-Nasai)

Hye. It's 16th April. Tuesday.

Got an interview today. More like a test. Do pray for me :')

Pray that I'll get the scholar.

Even if I don't, pray that I'll take it with open heart. No regrets.

"Rezeki ada di mana-mana. Setiap orang, rezekinya tak sama"

Alhamdulillah. Syukur sangat2 I got an offer ! I didn't get psychology like I always wanted but this is good enough. I got an offer in Optometry. 1 year foundation in MSU then 3 years in UK. Actually my mom picked this course for me. And since I know my result are not qualified for the course that I wanted so why not give it a try. And it seems kinda interesting too. Alhamdulillah I'm glad I listened to my mom. Thank you mom :)

After doing a few readings I found out that Malaysia is in highly demand in Optometry. This course is not yet entirely explored and many people don't have any idea of what it's all about. People might think an optometrist just open a shop of spectacles and whatsoever. But truth is, it's much much more than that ! every hospital needs an optometrist and an opthalmologist (I'm not sure of the spelling sorry). They're both in the same field but optometrist can't perform surgery. So we basically examines and studies the condition of the eyes. There's more specific matter such in Neuro Visual, perception of depth and colour. Optometrists examines the condition of the eyes to detect and diagnose eye problems and diseases. And those that have laser correction are also things that fall under the jurisdiction of an optometrist. Well that's all I know, and surely it excites me to learn more about it, in shaa Allah.

My interview will be on this 16th April. which is TOMORROW. Please, do pray for me :')

And to those having their interview soon, Good luck too !

" La Tahzan Nadiah, you're stronger than you think and you've got to have faith"

It's not because I didn't care, my feelings for you will never change. But all this time it feels like I'm the only one trying, I'm the only one making you happy, it's always about you. Can't you see that? I don't even know how you feel towards me. I tried to do everything to make you see how much I love you yet you never seem to notice that, at least I don't know you notice it or not. I understand you're busy with all the exams lately and I don't blame you for that. It's not because of that, even before the exams I don't see you pay much attention for me. Is it so hard for you to appreciate the little things I did for you? is it so hard  to reply my goodnight messages? to say that you love me? I tried to change for you. I tried not to do the things you hated, tried to be what you wanted me to be . Why can't you change for me? And now I give up I just can't handle all the emotions anymore. I'm tired of crying myself to sleep. I've kept it to myself for so long now and it's killing me slowly. It makes no difference, if I'm with you or not. Even if I am, you still treat me like I'm nobody so what's the point. It hurts so much being ignored. Feels like I'm not important in your life. Yeahh maybe I am and I'm just too stupid to realise it earlier. I'm sorry I can't be the girl of your dreams. I don't even think I'll ever be good enough. Yes, I'm stubborn, I have high ego, I'm selfish. Everything you said about me was right. But that's all because I only wanted your attention, wanted you to care about me. And I guess that's just too hard for you to do. It's okay. I'm letting you go for a better life. You don't have to put up with me anymore. You don't have to to deal with me anymore. You don't have to worry about making me happy anymore. Please just live your life and I'll live mine. Maybe in the future if we're meant to be then we'll meet again.

I don't know why I'm writing this entry, I know you'll never read it :'(

Assalamualaikum :')